Ants In Your Pants
If you have this nagging feeling that there is more to life than what you are currently experiencing...I bet you are right. All it will take is the boldness to start exploring what it is...What you were designed for...
Growing up I always thought I would travel and even do some modelling. I was a real girly girl...wanted to dress up and do hair plus makeup. If you see me today, you would never guess. During my late teens I wanted to be a successful business woman. I wanted to climb the corporate ladder and make a success of my career. I wanted to earn a good salary, have a spacious home and a car. Miss Independent!
Just over 8 years ago I realised the corporate ladder wasn't my thing. I felt like the corporate environment was choking me and whilst pregnant I just had thoughts of what would be best for my child. It was rough going back to work after maternity leave and my little one didn't make it easy as she refused to take the bottle. She would starve herself, until she couldn't anymore and drink just enough to still the worst hunger. When I got home in the afternoon she would grab hold of me, as she could not wait to be nursed. During the night she would make up for the hunger strike during the day. This was a taxing experience for me.
I became so unhappy with the routine and my life. I had even fallen prey to depression. Looking back I can testify that only God kept me going. Through the mundane things of life and having our second child I discovered more of my purpose.
God stepped in and I was awakened to a Bridegroom that woos His beloved. He started putting the puzzle pieces together as He gave me small tasks to complete. Reaching out to this person and arranging that meeting, as well as teaching me about the prophetic. I became alive when He used me in this way. I knew I was called for more than this. And though I didn't always carry myself well during the years of waiting, His grace carried me. I would wonder why I couldn't be content where I was. I was blessed with a good job. My family was well taken care of. I could minister to people as God led. Yet... I had "ants in my pants". I knew that I knew that I knew... This wasn't His plan for me. I was in this position, because of decisions I made without consulting my Abba.
My prayer had been to get out of corporate and work for the Lord, while being around for my kids. Not having them in school and aftercare all day and then rushing through the routine to get them ready for the next day when we got home.
After about 7 years I felt the Lord speak and I knew it was time to make the move. He has strategically prepared me for the journey ahead. I am home for a year and a half now and I can testify of Gods goodness. His provision and guidance every step of the way. With each step of obedience He is growing and molding me and the vision He has for me. This journey isn't easy, but it is worth it. I can honestly say that I would not trade it for anything. My Life/Destiny is in His capable hands.
I will share more about projects that has birthed through the journey, again…
Growing up I always thought I would travel and even do some modelling. I was a real girly girl...wanted to dress up and do hair plus makeup. If you see me today, you would never guess. During my late teens I wanted to be a successful business woman. I wanted to climb the corporate ladder and make a success of my career. I wanted to earn a good salary, have a spacious home and a car. Miss Independent!
Just over 8 years ago I realised the corporate ladder wasn't my thing. I felt like the corporate environment was choking me and whilst pregnant I just had thoughts of what would be best for my child. It was rough going back to work after maternity leave and my little one didn't make it easy as she refused to take the bottle. She would starve herself, until she couldn't anymore and drink just enough to still the worst hunger. When I got home in the afternoon she would grab hold of me, as she could not wait to be nursed. During the night she would make up for the hunger strike during the day. This was a taxing experience for me.
I became so unhappy with the routine and my life. I had even fallen prey to depression. Looking back I can testify that only God kept me going. Through the mundane things of life and having our second child I discovered more of my purpose.
God stepped in and I was awakened to a Bridegroom that woos His beloved. He started putting the puzzle pieces together as He gave me small tasks to complete. Reaching out to this person and arranging that meeting, as well as teaching me about the prophetic. I became alive when He used me in this way. I knew I was called for more than this. And though I didn't always carry myself well during the years of waiting, His grace carried me. I would wonder why I couldn't be content where I was. I was blessed with a good job. My family was well taken care of. I could minister to people as God led. Yet... I had "ants in my pants". I knew that I knew that I knew... This wasn't His plan for me. I was in this position, because of decisions I made without consulting my Abba.
My prayer had been to get out of corporate and work for the Lord, while being around for my kids. Not having them in school and aftercare all day and then rushing through the routine to get them ready for the next day when we got home.
After about 7 years I felt the Lord speak and I knew it was time to make the move. He has strategically prepared me for the journey ahead. I am home for a year and a half now and I can testify of Gods goodness. His provision and guidance every step of the way. With each step of obedience He is growing and molding me and the vision He has for me. This journey isn't easy, but it is worth it. I can honestly say that I would not trade it for anything. My Life/Destiny is in His capable hands.
I will share more about projects that has birthed through the journey, again…
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